Fighting for Victory

I don't understand why I continue to expect a fair match when engaged in a dispute with a family member. It seems that the old mistakes I've made in the past are shot at me with rapid fire precision. The old saying" forgive and forget" never seems to apply when dealing with mere mortals.

I know God forgave my stubborn will, my faults and my failings according to the confession of my weakness. Those around me seemed to get over it when I asked for their forgiveness also. Yet Satan always stirs up some form of rememberance over past mistakes. I'm so sure I'm not the only one in this world tormented this way!

The scenario seems to go like this.... I'm going along just fine, joyfully accepting the day to day inconveniences and expectations of others, growing in my ability to set boundaries that are healthier then in the past. Suddenly a sarcastic mention of a past foiable is made. Right in the middle of my positive attitude! Thats right, out of nowhere it seems I'm dragged to a time when the spirit of God was retraining me to move in a new and sanctified way. You know, " the pruning season". When there were things in my life that needed to be cut out! It was hard enough back then to hear, imagine how much more painful it is to continue to be identified with old sin!!! And who but the members of my own family fall prey to be used of Satan in my devaluation!!!

And again I must go in my spirit to that strong tower, which is the name of Christ, and hide from the burning arrows of defeat. For me it has become a shorter distance to cross these days. I get there by singing "Who can wash away my sin, nothing but the blood of Jesus, Who can make me whole again, nothing but the blood of Jesus". I sing this song silently to myself. I sing it LOUD inside my head. I sing it as long as it takes till the attack subsides. And all the while the outside of me stays steady. I keep quiet. I walk away. As Jesus said on the cross" it is finished"!

When Satan reminds you of your past, just remind him of his Future!