Life interrupted

Change is the only constant in my life. Most of it is beyond my control. Experience tells me I am not alone. Some changes are forward motion toward goals, others uncomfortable in the unexpected revalations I have about my attitudes. Still every new situation brings about a need to redefine and evaluate who I am and how I remain true to my own heart.

Each phase of this life so far has given me immeasurable insight into patterns and strategies that work or fail with my base responses. I've learned not to look at the circumstances presented, but to look at what they ask from me and decide if I will indeed draw myself a more positive picture of the desired result. I do this to self- encourage. To wrap my head around the "what I can do" before the "woe is me " wins out.

I then must ask myself if I am supposed to do anything about it. I've gotten into a few jams in the past by not stepping back and thinking things through. I like to remedy things quickly. But some things are not up to me to fix. The serenity prayer is a favorite for moments like these. " God grant me the wisdom to change the things I can, The serenity to accept the things I can't, and the wisdom to Know the difference." And trust me there is a big difference in what I can accomplish and what God is really trying to accomplish in and through me!

The good Lord is patiently giving me a heart transplant each day( so to speak). He has offered His son Jesus as the donar. If I accept the donar heart it will give me a chance at a healthy future! It is a daily option for every situation. It should be simple, but at first it was very strange. I mean even recipients of organ transplants require anti rejection therapies. I found mine in the relationships of more mature women whose lives reflected the results of Christs heart within them.

At the age of 51, I am still benefitting from the mentor relationships that encourage me daily to walk in the newness of Gods love and plan. I need that encouragement as much as anyone else does. Things still change, my life is not my own. I may have gotten older and a bit wiser but 51 is still just the tip of the iceberg for new experiences. Being married , raising children, and working are really just the adolesent boot camp build up for what we older women are needed for as our families become generational.

Retirement is really a re-firement of all the good stuff we have aquired along the way! Now is the time to take it to a bigger family! Gods Family! All our brothers and sisters who call need an answer. All our neighbors and friends need a calming voice or strong hand. Most of all someone needs my time. Time to invest in their future, time to lend hope, time to listen and time to do what I've done , respond with a right heart!